Seeking love
Is a desperate cry
It leaves me wholeless, empty, and wanting
I seek it and seek it
Until my heart is hurting
My soul is hungry
My mind is wild
My emotions are senseless
My being is despondent
I seek love in approval
Approval lasts for a time
It satisfies until it’s forgotten
When the approval does not come
It leaves me wholeless, empty, and wanting
So, I seek love again
I seek it and seek it
Until my heart is throbbing
My soul is famished
My mind is unruly
My emotions are irrational
My being is downcast
I seek love in accomplishments
Accomplishments last for a moment
It gratifies until it’s obscured
When success is stripped away
It leaves me wholeless, empty, and wanting
So, I seek love again
I seek it and seek it
Until my heart is stinging
My soul is starving
My mind is disorderly
My emotions are vain
My being is dejected
I seek love in purpose
Purpose lasts for an era
It energizes until it’s fruitless
When the need is no longer crucial
It leaves me wholeless, empty, and wanting
So, I seek love again
I seek it and seek it
Until my heart is disappointed
My soul is lifeless
My mind is drained
My emotions are stale
My being is decayed
I seek love in people
People last until they change
They love with self-interest
When the self-interest is no longer pleasing
It leaves me wholeless, empty, and wanting
So, I seek love again
I seek it and seek it
Until my heart is aching
My soul is yearning
My mind is unwise
My emotions are erratic
My being is wretched
Then
I seek love in the eternal
I uncover it in the everlasting
He never fails me, judges me, or uses me
He just loves me for me, just me, only me
His love has no hidden agenda
He is altruistic
He desires me, accepts me, comforts me
His love, God's Love, is unpolluted
He just loves me, for me, just me, only me
When all is wholeless, empty, and wanting
The love of God
Is sufficient, satisfying, and seamless
He loves with spotless assurance
He just loves me for me, just me, only me
So, I seek Him again
I seek Him and seek Him
Until my heart is healed
My soul is filled
My mind is surrendered
My emotions are useful
My being is at peace
Then I discover
I love Him
Our union becomes organic
I find that I need no other
I need Him, for Him, just Him, only Him
Marcie, I really like your musings. I just read something yesterday that reminds me of this. It's from Mark Driscoll & Gerry Breshears' "Doctrine" book
ReplyDelete"Whatever we base our identity and value on becomes 'deified'; this object of worship then determines what we hold in glory and live for. If that object is anything other than God, we are idolaters worshiping created things."
(and then he is quoting Tim Keller (p.348) (who is quoting Soren Kierkegaard.)
"If anything threatens your identity you will not just be anxious but paralyzed with fear. If you lose your identity through the failings of someone else you will not just be resentful, but locked into bitterness. If you lose it through your own failings, you will hate or despise yourself as a failure as long as you live. Only if your identity is built on God and his love, says Kierkegaard, can you have a self that can venture anything, face anything...An identity not based on God also leads inevitably to deep forms of addiction. When we turn good things into ultimate things, we are, as it were, spiritually addicted. If we take our meaning in life from our family, our work, a cause, or some achievement other than God, they enslave us. We have to have them.
Remember this-if you don't live for Jesus you will live for something else. If you live for career and you don't do well it may punish you all of your life, and you will feel like a failure. If you live for your children and they don't turn out all right you could be absolutely in torment because you feel worthless as a person.
If Jesus is your center and Lord and you fail him, he will forgive you. Your career can't die for your sins. You might say, 'If I were a Christian I'd be going around pursued by guilt all the time!' But we all are being pursued by guilt because we must have an identity and there must be some standard to live up to by which we get that identity. Whatever you base your life on-you have to live up to that. Jesus is the one Lord you can live for who died for you-one who breathed his last for you. Does that sound oppressive?"
Not at all oppressive. Jesus is everything. And I am so greatful that He is my everything.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing with me. I so appreciate your comments and insights. :)